j a l

" i love you a billion red m&m's "
is what she tells me.
but i probably love her more than the stars in the sky
or more than lyrics in a Katy rose CD.
we were so unbelievably close in elementary school.
running around so care-free in the park with your dog dusty
and staying in your backyard eating raspberries
we used to sing everyday
and Ive laughed with you more times than my stomach can handle.
we have more nicknames than we can even remember
but ill always remember you, and how much our friendship means to me, and how much i love you.





" scent is the strongest thing tied to memory "
you tell me this all the time when i smell things about my childhood.
and when you smell your hand cream that reminds you of being dumped.
or the smell of Starbucks reminds me of us journal writing in chapters.
or the smell of campfire smoke reminds me of us going to pow wows
or the smell of sandwiches reminds me of us being on my boat because that's what we ate for dinner.
we've had so many laughs, memories, tears, sarcastic and immature jokes, and fights.
we've been all over the place but every time we feel infinite it gets better.
i cant wait for the day we sit in the back of a red pickup truck and blare the perfect music.
i love you so much




"its sad to think that time is what changed it and school and new people,
i thought we said nothing would ever change,

never say never i guess

i know its stupid reminiscing about the past but its hard not to think of it and not miss it
I'm not saying were not friends now,
but the way it was.
how it was so simple, perfect. nothing to worry about except when our next sleep over was.
talking on the phone till who knows how late.
we don't talk on the phone anymore

why does it get harder as we grow up.
now i know why Lauren didn't want to "



we all don't want to grow up, and experience responsibility at its worst or make hard decisions.
but that's what life is like, we can only improve it.
we need to be like how we used to be
we can still be kids at heart, who's gonna stop us ?
were in this together.
i love you guys, and i care about you a lot.
I'm excited to see where we end up in the future because you two are the most talented people i know.